Letter 2 Isis

Hey Girl/You must’ve been my karma/got my heart feelin’ all exiled/as if I was the Dalai Lama/walking thru these cold streets of…/no leather bomber/contemplating our past/we both victims of this drama/you mock the depth to the breadth/I adored you/nights when we laid tight to cuddle/I absorbed you/even now/I feel you in my skin/when the pain became too much to hold in/I tried to use this pen to purge/despite the urge/for tongue to curse your name/at times/I feel consumed by flames/when these hurtful thoughts/bombard my name/shyt/you know what feels a little strange?/when it rains in Memphis, TN/my heart throbs with a deeper pain/synchronized with memories of things changing/potential masterpiece corroded/this picture’s outta focused/and what could have been/a beautiful garden/of blossoming lotus/has been decimated by locusts/essentially/I’m a child at heart/but a dreamer to a fault/too stupid to avoid/love’s hokus pokus/but I should’ve never been surprised/or pranced around with jaded eyes/the proof was pudding/and harbored no disguise/We began as subjects of a Sad Song/unfortunate/how our journey together never lasted long/before you came along/I thought my single life was kosher/just me/school and beats/inspiration/rhyme composer/but common ties/brought us even closer/two intellects/produce euphoric feelings/akin to ambrosia/my priceless Isis/so nice were the nights when/we used to ditch work/just to kick it/you, me and your daughter/precious/in my life/you two were blessings/and thru this verbal recollection/I pray you recognize/how the shyt was deeper than respect/You Were Reflection/infatuation/forms infection/you gotta know/how I miss caressing you/sting is what the absence do/but-like an idiot/I tried resisting you/and that ain’t cool/I thought it best/for the situation/and yeah/honestly/in addition/it justified my fear/I thought I wasn’t worthy/I thought the shyt was too good to be true/and in the end that you’d probably hurt me/but even worse see/was that tragic stroke of fate/neither one of us expected in a million years/all you needed was little peace/and sad to say that peace/cost a million tears/the death of daughter’s father/left you more than pierced/the weight of loss is fierce/and repercussions come in many forms/you know as well as me/that there were Many storms/but those words you spoke that night outside of Ck’s/how you only wanted ME in your space/I was more than happy to oblige/despite the drama/thru the fear I harbored/Fathom’s loyal—and that should come as no surprise/but season’s changed/the Winter rains descended/ and sad to say the wounds we carried deep within/they went un-mended/your admission how you didn’t Love me any longer/tore me all to pieces/and made me think you had pretended/but These words were never meant to win affection from You/rather redemption/and sincere mutual forgiveness/and though my Love for you and daughter still remained/despite the pain….I Just Wanted You To Know Some Things…

-Fathom 9/ Letter 2 Isis