Letter 2 Ashiya

[Intro]
I can feel it in the air
Yeah
Forever Ashiya
This for you, mama

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I know what they say, a man ain't 'posed to cry
They took the one I love away and just wonder why
My heart gone more than ever, fuck a shoulder cry
Letter to Ashiya, baby, I wish you were still alive
You know this shit don't add up and I won't never ever let it slide
Thinkin' 'bout Jay'Lani and Malaysia, I get the wettest eyes
You was never with none of the fake shit, you told 'em step asidе
Remember thе first day I met you, you had me memorized
Shit, I cut everybody off, don't wanna chill or kick it
I sit back and I take drugs, I screamin', "I hate love"
I close my eyes and treat memories like I'm in a visit
I been reminiscin' just to get that feelin'
I done shed a million tears starin' at these pictures
Middle of the night, talkin' to the moon, I hope you hear it
I done lost my appetite, I ain't fuckin' with these bitches
I don't want the love if you ain't the one to give it

[Chorus]
You was the realest in my world, I need you here, mama
I wish that I could give a life for you to live, mama
Since you left me, I'm alive, but I don't live, mama
I don't sleep no more, I just sit up in tears, mama
Thinkin' 'bout you, I just sit and look at the kids, mama
And for them girls, I'ma stand on all that biz, mama
It hurt my heart to know I'm stuck like this for years, mama
They put that pain on me and that's just what it is, mama

[Verse 2]
Standin' ten toes and all I see is dark days
I miss my life with you, I never thought I'd see the day we'd part ways
A day ago I walked through the valley of shadow of death
I fear no evil in this dark maze
Sleepless nights, painful memories and heart pains
Deep in my heart I just know you somewhere coolin' where the stars hang
Baby, can't no words describe how I'm feelin' in this dark place
Say your name over and over, it make my heart shake

[Chorus]
You was the realest in my world, I need you here, mama
I wish that I could give a life for you to live, mama
Since you left me, I'm alive, but I don't live, mama
I don't sleep no more, I just sit up in tears, mama
Thinkin' 'bout you, I just sit and look at the kids, mama
And for them girls, I'ma stand on all that biz, mama
It hurt my heart to know I'm stuck like this for years, mama
They put that pain on me and that's just what it is, mama

[Outro]
Forever Ashiya
Forever in my heart
You know I love you, girl