Let You In

Let's just take this slow
Let’s just think this through
How can you trust someone when they can't trust you?
I learned that lesson and I learnt it well
So sorry if I don't fall under your spell

Want to be with me, want to hold my hand
But I’ve been through things that you'll never understand
Truth be told, I don't know myself
I'm not some book you can read straight off the shelf

I smile outside, but I'm cold within
Hide my sadness beneath a cheshire cat grin
You think I'm brave, but I'm far from fine
I'd lay out the whole story but I haven’t got the time

’Cause I can't let you in

I can’t let you in my mind
I'm too afraid of what you'll find
And I can't let you in my head
To see the things I’ve left unsaid

Once I let you in there is no getting out; once I let you in there is no getting, getting out, out
Once I let you in there is no getting out; once I let you in there is no getting, getting out, out
Once I let you in there is no getting out
Once I let you in there is no getting out
Once I let you in there is no getting out
Once I let you in there is no getting, getting out, out

I've lost my mind, I've cried everyday
Does it make you a bad person if you need to run away?
I fell apart, pulled myself back up
With a little bit of help and a whole lot of luck

I'm not quite fixed, though I have thick skin
There are still some things that find their way in
I build strong walls to hide behind
But they can't hide the fact that the world isn't kind

I have reached out, and I've been shut down
Wanted holes to open up, swallow me into the ground
I thought they were different, though they were unique
Turns out I was interchangeable with girls who look like me

But I am not a maiden you need to come save
Not a problem to be fixed, not your accolade

I just need time, I just need space
Has no one ever told you that life isn't a race?

'Cause I can't let you in

I can't let you in my mind
I'm too afraid of what you'll find
And I can't let you in my head
To see the things I've left unsaid

And I can't let you in my dreams
You might just spoil them with your schemes

No, I can't let you in my head
To see the dreams that are now dead