Let You Down

Running the numbers, and I’m running out
Faced with my failures, closer with every round
Cutting the corners, but it’s death by papercuts
If I asked you, would you help me get back up

There’s a whole lot of shit that I’m not sure about
I could use your love while I’m workin it out
But I didn’t call you so many times there’s too much doubt

What am I doing
What if I’ve let you down
What am I losing
What would you think of me now

So this is my burden, this is my compromise
Been leaving out details, leaning on little lies
Imagining judgement everywhere I go
Feeding the demon, then pushing it deep below

So I pick up my check and I sneak out the back
Try to hide from the shame of the things that I lack
But pen hits the paper so many times and you can’t go back

What am I doing
What if I’ve let you down
What am I losing
What would you think of me now

It isn’t the choice, it’s the reason I made it
I should have been strong like the man you raised me to be
And I feel the weakness that runs through my bones and I hate it
And I don’t ever want you to see

What am I doing
What if I’ve let you down
What am I losing
What would you think of me now

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