Let Me Grieve

[Intro]
No
Don't tell me to calm down, man
I'm so tired of losing people, bro
I'm so fucking tired

[Hook]
I know I'm in my feelings, but at least I'm feeling
'Cause I don't want to be numb
Why do I need pain in the midst of healing?
'Cause right now I can't see through the fog
This my last letter to my old self
Yea, so I had to make this song cry
Blueprint to a better life
Building courage up just to fight

[Verse]
Like Eustace they tell me I'm useless
I'm counting up blues like they clueless
I don't let em cap on my usage
This spirit inside
Don't abuse it
I pour it into the music
My emotions
They making a symphony
I ain't asking for pity or sympathy
Crawling out of a hole that was meant for me
At the door of belief like a witness be
God call
It's on vibrate
I'm busy bee
So it's buzzing while I'm going viral
They taking my focus off my vitals
More & more I just give them my heart
In a moment I'm gone need a transplant
By then it'll be too late to answer
Too many missed calls but I'm passed that
Been at war with myself like I'm cancer
Forward all of the calls that'll cure it
Like why won't I just pick the phone up
To be honest I'm scared of the future
I heard that my voice is important
But I feel I'mma die for this music
The industry ask me to calm it down
Tell me If I speak truth I look foolish
So do I appeal to societal norms
Or do continue to dig my grave
Not afraid of death
I'm afraid of fame
Not afraid of love
Just afraid to claim
'Cause this body ain't mine
And neither yours
It's a beautiful thing when we rise above
Suicide is weak but it's still a choice
Don't accept defeat or you'll feed the voice
And even if you feed it, it don't fill the void

[Hook]
I know I'm in my feelings, but at least I'm feeling
'Cause I don't want to be numb
Why do I need pain in the midst of healing?
'Cause right now I can't see through the fog
This my last letter to my old self
Yea, so I had to make this song cry
Blueprint to a better life
Building courage up just to fight