DHeusta talked about the meaning of this song at NerdCore Party Convention 2022
“This is a song that is very personal to me, very genuine as well. Anyone who’s had a broken heart, you’ll relate to this”
I don't wanna let go, let go, let go
But how am I gonna lay low when I can't let go?
And say no 'cause I can't let go
No I can't, why can't I let go?
Who knew that I was gonna lose you so soon, stop that!
No need for the old tune 'cause she knew you're heartbroken too
Now they'd be messing with my mind
What is it that you wish you could find?
Stop looking back, keep it down in the trash
'Cause that's where you'll stay if you let 'em out, hey!
I'm about to let you know that I'm gonna let you go
I feel like what I said ain't so
'Cause my mind is caught in slow motion
Commotions, promotion is waiting at nothing
'Cause I am the one who moves it around to be locomotive
You know what I've realized is it's all to me, but unfortunately
I've got nothing for the surprise see
Happy birthday to my memories
Because of the day when I let them all in
I'm not who I was, don't know where he's been
I'm trying to look for the light in the tunnel
But all I see now are my thoughts in a struggle
Yeah they're wrong, well prove them wrong, ah!
Man, you are the one to tell them "Begone", yeah!
'Cause you gave 'em the praise then set them ablaze
But watch as they burn to ash, Hell unturned
'Cause one by one, we go igniting the herd
Let's switch it up
Who knew that you were gonna lose me
And try to back out, no, I see
It's plain and simple, mostly, except the part where you play me
Who knew that I was gonna move on, make a few songs that put out my thoughts
Though my thoughts come across like I've been tossed to carry my cross
But it's true, yes I'm through 'cause I knew that's all they'd do
That's all they threw at me, 'cause I was scared [?]
But I'm done with them, I'm done with them
No need to be within, 'cause if they come back in, I'll knock them out again
I might have been down on one knee
But you take it back 'cause you wanted to leave
So I take it back and I let you all see that I am okay now though I wanna scream
I've tried my best to keep it all in
But glass, when it's broken is incredibly thin
Yeah, like a bomb, ready to go off
Tick, tick, when you're ready or not!
See, hear that tickin'?
Don't be scared, just sit down, listen
I'm gonna tell my thoughts, just sit down
I'm gonna tell them all to get loud
I'm gonna make my thoughts go boom pow!
Like a mental breakdown
No, not for you to break down
Yes, for my mind to spill out
I need a new route I know nothing about (Woo!)
I need to shoot down my thoughts in the clouds
'Cause I've got a new place and the lyrics are face
Yeah, I've got a new face, now give me some space
Here we go!
Back then I was gonna bake them
I was gonna make them, break them down and shake them
Feelings are weird and I want them to stay
But I put my thoughts on the table, hey!
I guess you could say that I was blinded
The only way to get a peace of mind
The only way to get a hold of mine
[?] to get loud and let it go
Let it go, let it go, yeah
Let it flow, let it show, hey
I never did think that I had this in me
Esteem enough 'cause you saved me from what had almost killed me
But I take a stand, now I'm ready
But if I met him when I was kind of embarrassing
I don't think I would think of him like an enemy soon to be
'Cause I'm the only enemy I see [?]
Nobody knows how hard it is to be me!
Be you, to be free, to let your heart out and be hurt so quickly
To give your heart so trusting, but then to come back broken
I guess I mean to say that I'm not the only one to be heard
'Cause I know there's another herd of people who have been hurt
But there's a reason for everything, who now would not believe
'Cause I believe there's something for me
Something I gained out the blaze just to bleed