Left Handshake

I think I'm water
A sickness grows inside
Help me out of it
I decayed and rot away
You're blocking my zen
And I know I'm here
???
And ???
You can't heal a soul
One to one in you
Last morning
Little one of two, no color
Darkness flesh pot
Mind reflecting
Through the paint of a picture
Cracks ???
Believe in your vision
???
In bone watered down
???
Take ingested poison
Recast, repeats, astounds
Presenting a sight
Visual betrayal
Last rights denied
Signal trails a long road inside
Mind has defeated the state of disease
Gutless motherfuck chose a life of ease
Hard to believe when ??? falls
Takes the soul
Travels a trip to the edge of it all
Why can't they see I'm still in control
Still have my eyes
??? lifeless
Last rights denied
Medicated eyes feast through expected
The controls
No one right
???
It's a decision
Flip or toss this coin, head or tail
Cause effect breakdown
Inexperience fails
Washing the hands, pointing his way
Washing the hands, pointing his way
Washing the hands, guilt and denial
Washing the hands pointing away
Washing the hands pointing his way
Washing the hands point of denial
??? dying eyes ???
Who were the righteous need that be so ???
No guilt, no guilt
I see no guilt, no guilt in
Inexperience fails
My fears are my ambitions
Hey, it's okay
This world is such ???
Inside way downm hiding down
Where many don't know why ???
I wouldn't expect it could be
I never knew, never wanted to
Welcome water poison
Weakness, sickness grows inside
Where are...
Wishing you could grow up