Leave Me Alone

[Intro]
Feel like I haven't talked to y'all, done missed me
My pain run deep
Day after day
I dropped tears writin' this shit
Seems like I push against the clouds
They just keep blockin' out the sun
It seems since I was born
I've wakened every blessing morning (true shit)
Down on my luck and up against the wind

[Verse]
Yeah, down on my knees, every night I gotta pray
The judge wanna lock me up and take my life away
I got some shit up on my chest I feel I gotta say
This shit 'bout to get deep so listen up, ain't 'bout to play
Lord, sometimes I really need your help
I'm stressin' real hard, sometimes I want to kill myself
I stopped takin' these drugs because they bad for my health
One night I load the revolver with a full six shells
It get deeper than that, that's why I stay with a strap
My love for some fuck niggas, got some wounds in my back
Niggas 'posed to be my brothers, why they cross me real bad?
I ain't even think twice, I ain't takin' 'em back
Watched my mama struggle tryna get them bills
Hit the streets with my brother, fiendin' for a meal
'Cause the labels scared of me and they don't want to give a deal
Ain't gon' hold shit back, nigga I'ma tell it real
Yeah I stayed with my mama, I was sleepin' on the floor
Even sharin' rooms with one bed with my lil bro
Jada looked me in my eyes, where my daddy 'bout to go?
Daddy gotta make a way 'cause I'm always on the road
Big Test told me one day this shit was gon' get deep
Can't let this shit stop, you gotta stay on your feet
Take this shit like you was boxing when you bob and you weave
Why the people say they love me always just wanna leave?
Fifty K in that jewelry, need my neck cold
That shit don't mean nothin' when it's all gone
And some bitches did me bold, that's why I love wrong
People tend to cross me, send them hitters, want 'em all gone
They don't know about this pain shit, oh yeah it run deep
Seein' my brother in the box just was like seein' me
My own family talk about me, yeah they changed on me
Think a nigga at the top but I feel lonely
Seven kids, six baby mamas, that's a lot of drama
Five of 'em cool, and that one, yeah she full of drama
Even want me dead, yeah this shit is sad and wrong
On the low she'll set a nigga up and get me gone
Always puttin' in my son head, daddy always wrong
But daddy tryna get it and daddy he never home
I'm always callin' my kids always up on the phone
Heard my pops got mad when I told the world that he stoned
12 hit the block just to set me up and catch me up
Told my mama if I die you know that they done wet me up
They told her they ain't gon' stop 'til they catch me and they get they luck
Sittin' here with this MAC-11, they can't take me bruh
12 hit the block just to set me up and catch me up
Told my mama if I die you know that they done wet me up
They told her they ain't gon' stop 'til they catch me and they get they luck
Sittin' here with this MAC-11, they can't take me bruh

[Outro]
Ayy that shit real deep, nigga that's just life shit
Motherfucker so short, I couldn't get enough of my pain off on this one
Part two comin' though
I done did enough tears on this bitch, I'ma let the beat cry for y'all