Learned Behavior

I've gotta get outta here
Sometime or another
Get off my ass make my way back to work
Cat-sitting doesn't call for undivided attention you know
I know

I've seen too many fall apart this way
I swore I wouldn't add to the tally
If we're true to the narrative I'm no different

I'm just another graduate
Starving for work however she can get it
I came home from a gig that made me hate music
I'm signing a lease that I can't afford with my friends
Ain't this the dream

To be floating a family
While they fight over money
I'd go broke to put an end to it to give them something else to do

Get me out of the middle
Haven't caught myself a break since I opened my eyes
Twenty-five years ago they called me beloved
And they spelled it all wrong
It's a beautiful sentiment
I've never felt less like it's true
For anyone that matters

So cut me slack I'm just trying to get back on my feet
Do the things I thought I'd have done by nineteen
I'm so hard on myself

Well I wonder if self-loathing's learned behavior
If so can I unlearn it too?
I tell everyone I love they're wonderful
They’re doing their best and I've never been prouder and I want to believe in me too
Maybe I could believe in me too