LAST TIME

The last time who knew we end up here?
Paranoid of our freedom, avoiding our everyday tasks, making excuses for our solitude, afraid to come into contact when our bodies knew [?] so well, when our breath sang in harmony, our heart danced in rhythm, our bones fell together on purpose

Remember how our spirits wove with ease?
How our hope created a birthplace for dreams to live? Who knew the magic would end?
Who knew thе pool would waver when our bodies knеw hunger, knew greed, knew a quick fix would arrive and make up for lost time sometime soon

I still think on the tears we shared, followed by the love we made right after we chopped it up and got deep
A memory too spotless to be taken for granted or forgotten
A pseudo addiction
A sweet tooth gone mad and too out of control to manage a habit so pure and rotten at the same damn time
A connection too pure for this generation

I swear to God I would die behind it, just to make sure the story lived on

Who knew we'd deprive each other of it?
When did you decide to place a boundary? I mean a grudge against me?
When did you flirt with the life after ours? A life beyond me..

How could you settle on a future that leaves me behind?
When did I become the enemy?
When did my heart become less shiny?
How could you fall out of love?
Why did you choose to set me aside?
Who are you making space for?
if it's necessary to move on in this way
I guess I'll store our wounds into a sacred place
I'll nurture them when they need a drink of water
I'll find a dangerous thought to make friends with
I'll convince myself this was for the better
I'll find the purpose of our attachment and I'll hear it for us
I'll free you from me and me from you and I'll smoke,
I'll drink, I'll dance, I'll shed and I'll ache at the thought of you

It’s the details of us the grief that threads us together the life
We said we lived together and still have it
You think about it just as often as I do, I know this for certain I can feel you when the candle explodes and the mayhem increases and the charm that binds us erodes and dies out
I can feel you in your uncertainty
I can feel you wishing to release it
I can feel you reminiscing again
I thought we could be friends
I thought we could forget the bad blood
I thought we could bury the Blues
I thought our forever was solid
Our names implanted into the soil, I thought we owed that to each other

Who knew we could survive without each other?