Lab Rat

Oh I see you still have some questions about my methods
I promise your needs are considered under my wing

You'll be safe and sound, taken care of, all your needs met
Come on dont be shy, signing this form you won't regret

I understand that this can be a tad overwhelming
But cross my heart it'll all be worth it in the ending

Ok god damn I get it
Give me that stupid paper

If this is some sort of scam then-

Glad we have a taker!

Sorry I've been kind of distant
And a little inconsistent
I just don't quite feel all there yet
I have the tendency to forget

My memories rather hazy
Just not anything too crazy
But I won't lie I see eyes
Behind things i don't recognize

God this is embarrassing
Why the hell is this happening?
Stuck in some weird purgatory
I should've read the finer print

My head isn't on my shoulders
I can't feel time getting older
Between minds I'm on the border
My flesh, it can't get much colder

Prepare
It's a crucial
Judgment
Don't overthink

I can
Feel it getting
Closer
We're on the brink!

Tamper minds, distort reality
Playing god's never felt any better
For the sake of humanity
Please stay calm play front and center

Tamper hearts, confuse morality
Playing gods never felt so clever
Selfless selfish identity
Mission finished, free of error

Ugh I feel like shit
What was that bizarre nightmare?
It felt much more real than it should
When you compare

I could say the same
I had a similar encounter

Wait who are you?
What the fuck?

Why are you in my head???
Why am I in your head???

Oh goddammit this is exactly what I needed
I'm going off the rails 'guess
Working as intended

Hey just hold on a moment
Don't presume I'm guilty
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm as real as I can be

So wait, let me get this straight you
Signed off on some sketchy deal but
As it turns out, you've revealed
You didn't read it, now you're here?

I won't lie I won't contrive you
Know I'm glad you're still alive but
Now I'm caught up in this mess its
Causing me a lot of stress

Yeah that about sums it up
You know I really fucked things up but
You're trapped here against your will and
That's somehow way worse then still

We could find a way together
To escape and make things better
Die or run I choose the latter
I still need to find an answer

I know
You see it as
Cruel
Don't ruin this
It's my
Magnum opus
Blatant
Blood-red thesis

Tampered hearts escape reality
Behind truth what you see is a monster
Please look beyond morality
Can't you see how much this matters?

Tampered view rotten utility
Its nonsense from what I could gather
Sacrifice is necessary
But does my perception matter?

Ruined lives disturbed tenacity
Playing god's never felt so bitter
Doubts cloud my mind so selfishly
I don't know why it feels so ugly

Too caught up in faux heroism
I should know that I've grown way too numb
Blind-sighted by what was easy
I realize I'm not what's holy