Kream

Cream
It controls me, it my existence
My purpose the reason I breathe
The reason I believe and the path to succeed, it's all I need

I woke up on the blindside
Was blind to the bright lights
All those nights staring out the terrace
Embarrassed of my status
Made sure it wouldn't stay the way it was
I didn't do it just because

I took risks took chances
Played the game by ransom
Cuz Opurtunitys are never handed

Changing up like the guards
Knew the finer things weren't a fassod
Found a whole new way to rob

Thinks clicking starting to succeed
Plans got completed
Continued to proceed

Everything was breeding
Coming to fruition
Life started speeding
Put into position

All I had to to do was lay low
But u know how the story goes
Once u get Tht feeling its like blow
Get addicted but never know

No one knew not even the family
If only they did how could they look at me

I apologize to the ones I've left behind
And to my son who commuted suicide, I cried

Many tears, doing so many years
If only I had such fears
Listened to my peers
If I just had swallowed my pride
And lord knows I tried
But u can see it my eyes that

Hook

And now I stand a new man
New focus new plan
I hope they understand

But how can they forgive
And forget
How could they love and not have debt
I'm saying everyone deserves a second chance
But deep down I have no regrets

And I know that seems harsh
But u have to feel that taste
That power I had did u see there faces?

All the places I would go and the people I payed with

See it wasn't really bout the money but more about the thrill
And none of u can Judge till u get that feel

Those are moments to kill for
When life feels more than just knock outs
Ur now on top of billboards

Headed North and everything is south
Ur paranoid but how can u stop now?

Getting more salad than croutons
An you've accepted ur role as the villain like lebron

And I've seen the interviews
And the news
Even the one on the view
With my son Andrew

He said he could never forgive me
No matter how I approached him
And I hope he hears this
Cuz that broke my heart in pieces

Or it would have if I wasn't so Teflon
Prisoner of my own bond
Heart colder than Omarion's

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No where I hide
So the times Is on my side

The cycle continues
The pain is controlling
Won so many hands
But left so many open

Closed so many doors
Not even the homes
Stole so much
Not even talking the loans

Ill beat my self up but I can't turn back
All i can do is face the facts