Kiss in the Rain

[Verse 1]
Living inside of my head to be zero degrees
I be freezing, I wanna be free
Praying to god, I was down on my knees
I don't know why the fuck he was watching me bleed
When I was young, I would look in the mirror
And say to myself, "I could do anything"
Nowadays when I be thinkin' about it
I get insecure like, "I don't wanna be"
Be the person that I know I am
I ain't had a plan, I was losing my hope
I am not a motherfuckin' man
I just wanna Benz, but I could never cope
Don't nobody ever understand
I just wanna fans and a couple of hoes
HopeLess turning to a fucking brand
I just need a hand, cause I'm all on own
Mama told that, "I gotta take care of her"
She doesn't know that I do feelin' tеrrible
I'm fighting demons, that wasn't comparable
Hеart on my sleeve, but that shit was unwearable
Everybody thinks that we doing the most
Don't wanna live in a life that I chose
I'm getting high just to even the lows
I see the broken hearts in the my post
I'm barely gettin' like two hundred views
I know that I'd be mad, I be losing my cool
You couldn't walk a mile in the my shoes
And I came from the dirt, but I just wanna bloom(yeah)
If you only knew all the shit I've been through
Don't got no love and it's killin' my mood
I be lost to confuse, but I do what I do
(True, HopeLess)

[Verse 2]
I know you telling me lies
You say you love me
But you left me when I was down in my last
And I wasn't surprised
I be relating the people that go with no help
Because I know the feeling inside
Remember them days I was crying for help
And nobody would notice if I would've died
But I still got on my grind
People do be lookin' me crazy
Like, "why the fuck you'd be depressed?"
I was the cause of a lot of pain
That I do not wanna talk about, cause of the stress
I don't make music for people that never been hurt
But I promise I'm trying my best
Devil be all on my neck
I feel like, "don't got a family"
Look in the mirror, I'm fearin' the person that I see
Cause he wasn't the man in me
I said I'd making a change
Made a desicion to better myself for the better
Because I got no one to blame
I need somebody to love
Cause I don't wanna fuck
But I just want a kiss in the rain
I think I'm falling in love with somebody
That don't love me back, she be playin' them games
I see the shit so clear, I see light so clear
Hold this all in, no headlights, no fear
Sippin' on beer, don't hear, right?
No tears, I ain't gon stop, no red lights
I'm sick, but I still got no meds, right?
You know, but you don't tell, no fair right?
I work and I get fly no jet, right?
I'm still thinkin' bout them days I play, right?