Killing Myself

[intro]
Ohh, ohh

[verse 1]
In this space i'm at so dark and i can't figure who i am
Fake(?) a nigga flexin', imagery for instagram
Told you from the start his ass was (?), he don't wan' be his self
Showin' signs that he weak, lowkey it's a cry fa' help
Lost sum bruddas to dat kutta, love dey moms i cry for dem
In dis world i got my bruddas, hope they know i'll die for dem
Ride for dem boys like no other, tryna keep dem positive
Down to like my last dollar, ain't a thing that i won't give
I been ridin' slow and my eyes low, i'm on drugs
I know, my heart really gone but i need love
Like who gon' be right here to wipe my tears ? i need a hug
The street life that i livе havin' no fear, gotta man up
But i deal with it on my own, i (Right) myself whеn (Wrong), love yo self til (?), niggas don't be yo bro
Like how the hell did i survive and the world so cold ? it got me feelin' like, fuck the world with no rubber on
I'm tryna put this shit in works like, how do i explain ?
It's like i'm talkin' to myself, keep sayin' the same thing
I get high like paper planes, i'm tryna get up out this rain
Lost my cousin then my mind changed, i wish i died that day
Steadin' doin' drugs tryna keep from feelin' awful
If i was there with leak & john, i swear i wouldn't of lost dem
It's hard fa' me to love when mentally i need a doctor
I wish rylo seen me now, look atcha' boy a baller
Hide my pain behind these bust down rings
All this money i make it brought me more pain
Shit don't change nothin' but yeah change everythin'
I had to crawl when niggas ran, they left me out to hang

[verse 2]
Ohh, yeah yeah
I don't want this pain
But i keep strivin', i'm runnin' at a steady pace
Even tho one day it's gonna be my time
Tell my momma don't cry, tell my bitch to move on
You gotta life to live i'll help find you new love while i'm dead and gone
I'll be watchin' from the sky, from the sky
Girl this spirit i'll still be holdin' on
Tryna figure out, what the fuck that they want ?
Everybody call on me, who i depend on ?
They won't realize my importance until i'm dead and gone
That shit hurt but it's the truth, niggas be dead wrong

[outro]
Ohh
Callin' up to god right now
This shit hard i'm on my own holdin' it down, i lost my heart at war now lookin' forward, it'll neva' be found
By everybody drinkin' knee-jam
Til what they could left me to bleed out, ohh
Mom i'm askin' you, can you call my granny ? 'cus i wanna kill myself right now
Ohh, ohh