Killing Me

[Verse 1: J Lite]
I don't have much else to do
Every other career path is something I can't stick to
But music is something I click to, I'm sick too
My homies always say "it's like music picked you!"
But it's brought up some issues with two choices:
To go all in or give in to all the voices
I'll turn em, so they'll learn I've earned their rejoicin'
I won't break, I'm gonna be the one making the noises

Gonna be flying like maverick, and by my side is my goose
Gonna let loose, I'm bringing justice like I'm Bruce
I get a boost from those who say songs aren't right for me
I used to think everything but my passion was the wrong thing
Now it's calming, that I flip that meaning
Raising the roof so high, I burst through the ceiling
Not gonna deal with how to appeal to people, that would be misleading
Understand the man I am to truly know what I am feeling

[Pre-Chorus: J Lite]
They say there's the kid, here he comes now
Let's see if he changes the game somehow
I'm doing it big, I'm doing it loud
I'm the only one here, but I'm making a crowd

[Hook: J Lite]
It's killing me, just sitting around, waiting to be discovered now
So if chilling ain't fulfilling what I want right now, how the hell will I find my sound?
So I stay up, stay up, and write til I fall down
Trying to change the game we play somehow

[Verse 2: J Lite]
Do I wanna become an activist?
To advocate against what's said in this game we're rapping in?
Not really, but I'd like to freely say what should be happening
Cuz if you mention something that needs attention, people might start examining
I don't plan to win the game, merely to participate
Maybe change the fate of a few good people to great
I wanna, show people there are others who relate
Nothing's written in stone if you start with a clean slate
So what if I had fame, money, and power, what would I do?
Would I live the same life I used to?
Nah, I'd be rich with a new whip, new grip on life, new views
Do I like the idea of being more selfish the more I grew?
Will any of this happen? I wish I knew
I'm okay with being entered into a game I'll lose
But if it happens, I hope I stay true
To the man I am, and not someone new