Ketamine

[Verse]
I don’t know what the fuck talk about
Lately I been feeling down, and ain’t nobody been around to talk to
So now I got this stress weighting on my head
Imagining a fucking pistol, fill me up with led
Stuck inside a room, and the walls are closing in
Cause I can’t seem to express myself, where do I begin
I got a lot to say, but no one to say it to
I wish that you were there for me, like I’m there for you
I’m nice dude, but I’m taken for granted
I help some people with some shit and they just take advantage
I only speak to myself, cause I’m my therapy
I really wish I had some friends who were there for me
Well not no friends at all, just someone to fucking talk to
But people treat me like I’m plastic, like I’m fucking see through
And they don’t care about thoughts or my fucking emotions
And they don’t care about my life, man I’m fucking broken
And they don’t see my tears, because I’m always smiling
I tell you guys I’m happy, but I’m really lying
I tell myself these lies, just to let the days go by
Cause I can’t stand to see myself when I fucking cry
Your a god, your an Angel, bitch your fucking perfect
I wanna be just like you because your always fucking worth it
And Your so damn attractive, but you don’t even try to
You were born with no flaws, I see why people like you
But then I look at myself, and then I loose my confidence
And then I start to break down, and then I loose my common sense
And people don’t understand, I can never be social
I hide my face I’m public, you can’t see what I go through
I will not let you harm me, I will not let you get close
I will never let you slow me down when I’m just tryna grow
I’m too paranoid, I feel my veins pulsing through my skin
Cause I’m so fucking angry knowing all the shit I did
Be positive, be happy, they say that shit helps
But in the end, it only want to make me kill myself
Fake friends with no minds and no personalities
Fuck em all, kill em all, they are all my enemies
I see things differently, no we are not the same
So don’t you fucking talk to me, cause you cannot relate
Smiling in your face but I know I’m gonna erupt
I break down pieces of myself, so I could build you up
But I’m a about to snap, whatever happens, happens
You never see the real me, cause I’m always actin
I just want you to stop it, just leave me the fuck alone
I don’t wanna be your friend, I just wanna go home
Cause you don’t really know me, and I don’t know me either
I wish that I was happy, I wish that I could see her
People look at me like I’m some damn fucking fiend
Go in the woods and overdose on fucking ketamine