Keeping Score

[Verse 1]
I was eighteen, freshly into college
Kinda missed my family, feeling melancholic
Things were better than they were in high school
That place was a first rate depression cesspool
There was a lonely ache in my body
Want somebody to hold me, just for the night
Went looking for a heartbreak
Looking for a mistake
But I didn't know it at the time

[Chorus 1]
That was the autumn I was hoping I could pull you
God, I really want to
Nose always in a book, so I started wearing perfume
Said you liked the smart girls, had to up my game
Studied for my one minute of fame
But you fed me to the lions, can't you hear them roar
Sitting in the background, keeping score
Keeping score

[Verse 2]
You knew that boy that said he loved me
Four days into talking
And I dropped him because he set my skin crawling
Held his life to my throat, wrote me ransom notes
I couldn't sleep for months
Thought maybe you'd be different, and I was right
But not in the way I hoped that might be
Oh, my avoidance met its match
And I became attached

[Chorus 2]
That was the autumn I was trying hard to pull you
God, I really want to
Lead 'em on, let 'em down, isn't that your full truth?
Said you liked the smart girls, let you pick my brain
Was I at least good for your grades?
But you fed me to the lions, can't you hear them roar
Sitting in the background, keeping score
Keeping score

[Bridge]
I felt cool, under your attention
And I guess you forgot
To mention what you were looking for
Wasn't me
Even though I wanted to be yours completely
Now I'm just keeping score

Ahh ah-ah

[Coda]
I was eighteen, freshly into college
Kinda missed my family, feeling melancholic...