Keep Giving Me The Pain

[Verse 1]
These past couple of years, though I've had a change
I feel like l'm losing myself over the days
It's almost like a crisis happens every year
And I disassociate away, I fear
But it's all fine, I know how to take it
It happens all the time, so why fake it?
I guess I could use all of this for good
And I'm just the one who's misunderstood

[Chorus]
So give me the pain, give me the pain
It's fine, it feels good anyway
I don't care if It takes my life away
I feel like I could lose it any day
So give me the pain, give me the pain
I’ll fall down at the end of the day
They all stand there in complete happiness
While I have to unfortunately hide it

[Verse 2]
They all see me as bright and happy
But they don't know the darkness and tears I bleed
I make these songs as I fly through the night
It's therapeutic, guess I'll keep doing it as a try
It crumbles, and crumbles, and you all leave
It's not like I'm gonna do anything but plead
For my life, I swear It's not a want it's a need
So I clench my fist until it bleeds (I wanna cut it please...)

[Bridge]
But that's fine cause he's just a masochist
He likes the pain, he'll be fine with it
You're the last one to be talking about this
So If so, well won't you just shoot me then?
I grow these balloons, they constantly inflate
If you ask Jenna, I'm sure she'll feel the same
I sometimes wanna plot and get revenge
But I won't, so until then…

[Chorus]
So give me the pain, give me the pain
It's fine, it feels good anyway
I don't care if It takes my life away
I feel like I could lose it any day
So give me the pain, give me the pain
I’ll fall down at the end of the day
They all stand there in complete happiness
While I have to unfortunately hide it