KAKEGURUI II

I put it all on the table
Regardless of whether I'm currently stable
Had every impulse enabled
Yet I crashed and burned and a win became fable
Put all my eggs in one basket
I gambled it all, and I thought that I had it
My art became gold but the friends tuned to plastic
I kept up this shit til the fall became tragic

Damn
Feeling like useless piece of shit that I am
Chased a high that could only destroy me by gram
Scapegoated and outcasted by all of my fam
Became codependent, time away felt like slams
On the cold hard concrete
Wish I could escape cause this shit so exhausting
I was so blind to the price it was costing
The way to escape felt like it would never cross me
Look, I was feeling so dehumanized
Was gratified by the feeling it was do or die
But it only begged the question, as to who am I?
Losing sight of inner self is why it's easy to comply
I swore I'd never go through that again
I was lost without emotion, I ain't had a zen
I drove away everybody I could trust
I couldn't learn from my mistakes
And let the strategy adjust

I put it all on the table
Regardless of whether I'm currently stable
Had every impulse enabled
Yet I crashed and burned and a win became fable
Put all my eggs in one basket
I gambled it all, and I thought that I had it
My art became gold but the friends tuned to plastic
I kept up this shit til the fall became tragic

Damn...