Just Checking In…

[Verse 1]
I've been travelin' the galaxy
Still tryin' to piece together reality, I check in on my psyche
Swallowed up by my anxiety, hide me away inside my room
I'm a prisoner of my own makin', abandoned all my note-takin'
I've accepted that I’m just a piece of shit
I don't like to admit my faults, but I'm ready to submit (To the—)
To the embrace of the reaper, been tryin' to cheat her, but I can't
I'm just a man who's been failin' since before the Loop began
And I'm tired of fightin'
Lightin' a fire under me does nothin' but burn
Whether or not I make it through this is none of your concern
Didn't want this fate, but I know that it's the one that I earned
I'm all out of order, and I have been for a while now
Drivin' to your house, but I'm still a mile out
Eyes down, I ain't never been proud of who I am
Losin' was always the plan

[Interlude]
*sigh*

[Verse 2]
Closure eludes me like a thief in the night
I've been battlin' the phantoms, but I'm tired of the fight
I'm ready to quit, I'll give up my soul on the eclipse
Turn apathetic to the parasite eating me away bit by bit
I'm a bitter shadow of the man I used to be
Passively lettin' shit slide, let you keep on usin' me
Your cuts never pierced the skin, they always delved deeper
Spot me in the moonlight holding hands with the reaper
She's a keeper I swear, might let her take me through the gates
Drive her to the beaches where I took her on our first dates
I'm at the beginning of the end
Hit the point of no return, all that's left is the descent
Losin' track of where I started, only certain where I'm going
I've been smoking with Angel too often, still feel like I'm floating
But I'm being dragged down by the truth of the matter
I'm a fuckin' dickhead who's stuck underneath the ladder
And all I can see are the red balloons hoverin' above me
Tried to start my recovery, just turned into a junkie
Addicted to the hollow rush that'll end up killin' me
At least when I give out, there won't be no one missin' me (Yeah)

[Outro]
Gi-givin' up my life, I'll make it yours, then I'll be
Givin' up my life, I'll make it yours, then I'll be cur-cur-cur-cured
Givin' up my life, I'll make it yours, then I'll be cured
Then I'll be—be—be—