Julian

Julian
You’re forcing dreams into my reality
I gotta figure out what’s wrong with me
But I can’t trust myself at all

Julian
My heart is pounding and my body’s weak
You’re like a nightmare waking me from sleep
I guess it’s time to take the fall

Julian
You took a dive into the deepest end
Keep a tally ‘cause you’re losing friends
And you’re only losing more

Oh, Julian
Maybe you’re perfect on the inside
That would explain all of the years you cried
But maybe you first should be sure

Oh, Julian
All this stupid stubble on my face
Two hundred thirty pounds of fucking waste
Worst palette I could work with—what a start

Oh, Julian
You've gotta treat your body with some care
You've gotta stop sad-cutting off your hair
You’ve made this so damn hard

Oh, Julian
Break me down, rebuild me as you please
I wanna change, I’m begging for release
And I don’t think I can do it all alone

Oh, Julian
What’s the worst thing I could do?
Waste a year or waste a whole life through?
How many memories must I disown?