Joy

Holding on to all these thoughts I own them, own them
Vibing out that bullshit when I know them, know them
You ain't really with it for the moment, yeah
Tell them I ain't broken, I ain't broken
All my words are fleeting, I seem devoid of meaning
If I seem annoyed, it's only 'cause I found new joy defeating
Look I got some [?] it turned to guilt, I know I need it
But it's like I'm overheating, full of shit and going to sleep and
Can't do drugs no more, just brings up what I ignore
Going through it sober, so annoyed that I get bored
Time stretches, ties less, try living life left
It might, in the eye, recognize nothing's right with it
I get it, I'm broke, nothing left to buy though
So why the fuck am I so worried bout survival
I can sit in this chair and stair at the wall until I go
I could just [?] instead of tearing apart like a psycho
I can beat the psycho, got the [?]
[?] I'll be honest, I've been idle
I don't, I don't know what's next, I feel so unchecked
I got reasons to believe but those ain't reasons I respect, yeah
Holding on to all these thoughts I own them, own them
Thunder 'cause by thunder gods, I'm Odin, Odin
Hundreds [?] cause commotion, motion
I'm vibing out the bullshit, yeah, I'm vibing out the bullshit