Journalentry01/07/21

[Intro]
(One and only)
(Ayo, is that TwoProducers?)
(Ooh, yeah-ah-ah, uh)

[Chorus]
I just wanna know if it's always gonna end in this way
Where I think back on my life and how I think it could change
And I don't think about time because I think of my age
Where I've been chasing my dream but I got nothing to say

[Verse 1]
I get carried away
With the thoughts that I have
And if I push you away
Well just know that it's that
That I feel that I've been pushed by people staring at me
And I don't know if you know how that all feels to me
'Cause I wanted peace from all the pain
That I felt throughout my life
Undiagnosed but yet I knew that something wasn't right
Then I had me a couple of shots
And I had me a couple of pills
And I went to the bathtub and tried to see the other side

[Bridge]
I just wanted to feel nothing back then
But now I feel too much the way I exist
And I lived in my head without a single friend
And now I feel lonely but not all that bad

[Chorus]
I just wanna know if it's always gonna end in this way
Where I think back on my life and how I think it could change
And I don't think about time because I think of my age
Where I've been chasing my dream but I got nothing to say, ahh

(No, no I'm not done yet, I'm not done-)
(I'm not fucking done yet)

[Verse 2]
I miss my mom and my dad
I miss my brother the most
I wished that I had the love
I used to feel at home
I wished that I knew a way
I wish that I had a plan
I wished that I could be happy with the way that I am
I wasted seven years of my own life 'cause I thought that I always
Had to do what I was told but never really thought of me
If I had it on my terms, I wouldn't make an enemy
But wanna say fuck you to all the friends that never cared for me

[Outro]
(And that goes for the-, I don't fucking know)
(Most of my friends are pretty good and I'm grateful, so thanks)