Jewel of the Garden

[Verse 1: Alxandah]
Classes I paid attention
Is zero I lost my patience
The hours lost to detentions
Can tower the occupation
I flower into sensations
The patience I had was wasted
The grace that I had forsaken
Is back lacks intoxication
I fronted for all my homies
The lie that I can't be lonely
Done tricked me to being phony
Im me now I can't be Joey
My mind did I trap my innocence
Why can't I lose this dissonance
Pistol whip unto hypocrites
Meaning guessing that I be hit
Burning through all my contacts
Had brian, and jon, and count jack
I lost them to my own contrast
Of thoughts that I fought to keep back
Im bipolar feed on feedback
I know that I shouldn't need that
But all of my fucking instincts
Will tell me to keep a keypad
To lock away all my feelings
Then next day talk about healing
As if I didn't just tell you a lie
To hang with heathens
I never would really mean it
I hate myself really mean it
I know that I can't say sorry
But now that you know the reason
I'm free and I'm feeling better
With glee I can chase this cheddar
That knowing that I am me and
That knowing that I get better
With every pass of the weather
The season fly by like feathers
You try to hold on too tightly
But harder you grasp it's tether
The lesser it gets familiar
The more that it gets to know you
The "real" that you are living
Is lesser than it can show you
Just open your eyes and feel it
Stop living inside your feelings
I stepped outside the box to
See what we were fucking given
I've given up hope in living
So now I can really give in
A hundred and ten percent
To reach olive branches they giving
I want to just be the realest
The nigga that you can feel with
I hope that my dad can hear this
I hope that you niggas feel this

[Chorus: Bandi & Alxandah]
No one's changing my mind
I caught a glimpse of that life
Back and forth in my head
I had to do it in the end
No one's changing my mind
I caught a glimpse of that life
No one's changing my mind
I caught a glimpse of that life
Back and forth in my head
I had to do it in the end
Back and forth in my head
I had to do it in the end

[Bridge: Bandi]
Exhilarating Intoxicating
Choosing which new path I want to take

[Verse 2: Alxandah]
This might be the outro of a lifetime lady
I feel crazy brazy I should call a hotline lately
Maybe I belong in a whole different timeline baby
I found DB though and they gone be my lifeline safety
To fall back on when I worry
Bout taking this fucking journey
I spared them believe in mercy
I shared them all of my worldy
Beliefs when I'm just carrying
6 deep what I'm buried in
Sleep that's when I cherish it
Life my hold is barreling
Down the fucking alley
I'll down another one at me
If chatty means I be happy
Then talking is what I'll gladly
Be doing I fucking knew it
A nigga from chitown cooling
A cooler filled up with koolaid
A booling nigga how you say
I feeling how you been feeling
A lost soul with no redeeming
A demon from top I beat em
All out with my fucking scheming
Im kidding I can't be seeing
These niggas that just be dreaming
I'm screaming inside Im fleeing
The scene end when I die being

[Outro: Alxandah]
Tell me that Ill be okay
Tell me that Ill be okay
At the end of the day
At the end of the day