Jealous

[Intro: King Iso]
I've never been an envious person in my life, man
Never been jealous of nobody
But like I did have a conversation with Mackenzie the other day
About like sometimes you do slip into those envious moments to people who don't have to deal with
The mental health shit we deal with, you know what I mean
Like how do you not feel that?

[Verse 1: King Iso]
Juxtaposition of the weak and the strong
In a world full of so many people
But seem so alone
I fall into comparing myself to few
So elated I've waited with nothing else to do
I sit at bay while the ocean moves
Transparent, opaque but we're both so blue
Look to space, lost within it, seems oh so gloom
Both dark for a star, where I go's no moon
And I feel like fighting
Betrayed by God and I don't feel right, crying
While everybody's smiling
But I'm real life dying to live a life like you do
With mental illness nonexistent, pain is well but few too
Taking some shots like my pistol out
You can just tell the bartender to send more rounds
Pop me an Ativan so I can simmer down
Someone save me before I fucking hit the ground
I know what I feel is envy now
People don't feel what I feel and that's really wild
Invisible while I'm standing right in the crowd
When they said ignorance is bliss I get it now

[Chorus: King Iso]
I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn I'm jealous of you
So jealous of you
Yep, I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn, I'm jealous of you
So jealous
Jealous, yeah

[Post-Chorus: King Iso]
You ain't never dealt with this pain, yeah
All sunshine no rain, yeah
Your life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Never dealt with this pain, yeah
Fucking up your brain, yeah
Life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Jealous

[Verse 2: King Iso]
Sipping this 40 while holding this TEC
Jellysickle like E-40 & Tech
How the fuck he don't feel this? Mean no disrespect
I'm as cold as a corpse, I'm a ghost in the flesh
Society has it at home to be next
Preachers outtake me, now bozo's a threat
For jelly you enroll like the homie I guess
For sure depressed/for shoulder press, that bar went over your head
Insomnia when you going to bed
And searching for love, I ain't holding my breath
I don't wanna answer my phone or a text
But it's 3AM and I'm scrolling my thread
All of this fame but still lonely as heck
Don't check on me but I'll still loan you a check
One day you'll be woke to this cloak, how I'm dressed
By then, at the way King Iso'll be dead
Two baby boys, why I give all my passion
And I stay driven, though mentally crashing
Some people just do not get it I'm asking
Is it wrong to feel this envy I'm having
I'm saving lives I didn't imagine
Gotta be strong, my strength isn't lasting
Here is the sad plot twist I've established
Iso's a hero that wished it could happen

[Chorus: King Iso & Mackenzie Nicole]
I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn I'm jealous of you
So jealous of you
Yep, I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn, I'm jealous of you
So jealous
Jealous, yeah

[Post-Chorus: King Iso & Mackenzie Nicole]
You ain't never dealt with this pain, yeah
All sunshine no rain, yeah
Your life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Never dealt with this pain, yeah
Fucking up your brain, yeah
Life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Jealous

[Verse 3: Mackenzie Nicole]
Antipsychotic, amphetamine, mood stabilizer, SSRI
Can't be alright
Can't relate to any y'all that around
My life is a circus, I feel like the clown
Gave me this life, but I'm turning it down
I'm sick of this shit, now, I'll see myself out
Always knew that I would start the car and close the garage (Garage)
So many thoughts torment my mind
But I won't say much (I won't say much)
'Cause you won't understand
You weren't dealt this hand
I try not to be mad at you, but I can't correct my stature
When your happiness is actual
And my energy can't match you
Tell me
Tell me why

[Outro: King Iso & Mackenzie Nicole]
Pain, yeah
Rain, yeah
Stain, yeah
Strain, yeah
Pain, yeah
Brain, yeah
Stain, yeah
Strain, yeah
Jealous