Jaded

Jaded
Today I’m feeling Jaded
Jaded

This year my love language is affirmations and cheques
My presence in the room got them agitated and stressed
The devil don’t advocate for the blessed
Praying on precious metals and plaques for now I came with the gems
Guided by my heart so I navigate with my chest
I don’t like machinery calibrating my steps
They’re too busy playing whose accolades are the best
I can’t sharе my views with a man that came to project

Rightеous heart or a wiser mind
How’m I so accustomed to the dark but I ain’t tryna hide
Questions I’m in need of some answers to when you find the time
And patience ain’t a virtue I love but it make for finer wine
My pen swayeth side to side
Life can really draw you out
But the most beautiful things are by design
I’ll admit I do think about it from time to time
I just hope future me can decipher signs
Convos with a deeper tone
It’s probably easier if we speak alone
But I can’t get too comfortable
Even when I’m told that I should feel at home
Scary events
I’ve seen wear people go
Just to be accepted
So now we keep it need to know
Born with this crown on my head
But they can keep the throne
I been sitting pretty since
Tia and Tamera had a TV show
Now I got sisters that wanna see me grow
Haunted by the doubt but the frequency help me see the ghosts

Pain in me pain in me
I can’t let it play with me
Living in my head I let it stay with me
Stay with me, stay with me
You can see the change in me
Look me in my eye I ain’t the same niggy
Stroke my head and pour the ray for me
Dunno what more they can say to me
‘Less it’s bout a money conversation
Today I’m feeling jaded
Yeah

Jaded
Today I’m feeling jaded
Jaded
Jaded
Today I’m feeling jaded

Jaded
Today I’m feeling jaded
Jaded
Jaded
Today I’m feeling jaded

Next year my love language is affirmations and cheques
Power of the tongue so I had to say it again
Grew up playing ball watching anime with my friends
Soon it’s flights to Japan so then man can pay me in yen
I cannot waver my pen
It protect me from the darkness
I feel it gravitating again
Grabbing me by the neck
Scratching and biting flesh
That demon keep you comfortably trapped inside of your bed uh
Falling into chaos you haven’t try to prevent
Coz you just cannot find the strength
But I’m here for you
Coz I been there
It’s a deep hole
You can sleep there
I been down bad
I had no p’s (peace)
Shut my friends out like they weren’t my homies
Felt faceless you wouldn’t wanna know me
Bruddah it’s a cold place
Swear it nearly froze me

Pain in me pain in me
I can’t let it play with me
Living in my head I let it stay with me
Stay with me, stay with me
You can see the change in me
Look me in my eye I ain’t the same niggy
Stroke my head and pour the ray for me
Dunno what more they can say to me
‘Less it’s bout a money conversation
Today I’m feeling jaded
Yeah

Jaded
If it ain’t about my paso’s and pound notes
Today I’m feeling jaded
Eeeyeah
Dollar bills
Forms of my weight in gold
Then I don’t wanna know coz
Today I’m feeling jaded

Standing in the mirror looking dead in my eyes
Competitions with a person that I don’t recognise
I was grinding everyday like the pay was my prize
Till he told me making art was like saving a life
They said your healing their hearts
All while I face my demise
Was it a necessary break of gently wasting my time
I toke my zoot on the left
Light my sage on the right
Would turn the volume down
But you know what the neighbours are like