Jade / My Cross To Carry / How It Always Goes

Only thing that makes me smile is spending time with my niece, but if i didn't have her then i wouldn't need to breathe
I don't want her to get old cause then she'll walk away from me, so for now she's the reason why i force another week

I will never be at peace, i'm forever incomplete
Ain't no fairytale or dream, i'm in hell thats what i think. It'd be better if i leave and end up dead up in the streets. Feel the pressure that i bring as i'm entering the scene

There is nothing for me to believe in
I wish that it wasn't the ways that i've seen it
I watched the substances change into weakness, seen those with the toughest of strength lay defeated

Then i became fiendish and stayed with the demons. My veins where it's seepin', won't wait cause i need it. My pain ain't depleted. why cain't i just leave it? I prayin' and screamin', "come save me lord jesus."
And although i mean it, i will be coming back
I just have too much in me that won't pass
Won't know when i'll die, so just don't get attached
Following me leave your heart ripped in half

Yeah my story sad and pathetic, wanna crash in my lexus. When i happen to tell it, it get bad it get hellish

I won't last not a second, where you at?
Baby hold my hand before i'm dead and then you can't

Yeah not enough time left, all the love i meant
Too dumb i guess, this is what i get

I gave up so quick now it's through
Wishing i was somewhere laid up with you

Fool don't visit my grave
Better listen to what i say
Now you're missing this face
That you didn't wanna claim

Na, I don't understand you not at all
You're the one that left, but yet you've got a broken heart?

As if you sent a text you think i just wouldn't respond?
Like if i had to pick i wouldn't get with you or talk?

Look if that's what you think then you ain't never been more wrong
Cause i've wanted you with me from the first second you were gone

And I don't even wanna start, better not get me goin'
I would kill god just to talk for a moment
Do it all and take another charge for a moment
Just to have you in my arms and get lost for a moment

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