​its not like u to be so unkind, so ugly

You
You went with the lies, oh
You play pretend and it, it holds you down
You
You better okay now
You're breaking it down in your heart
In your bigger part, you're a big girl now
You're a big girl now

You
You're feeling okay now
You're holding it down in your heart
Breakin' all of the same rules
You built up to ward so you never knew
How it felt
In the nighttime
When you're down
With your right right mind
And it's not like you to be
So unkind
So ugly

I think I'm a better person
Than the words that [?]
Hope is always so fickle
You're taking your time to figure out
What the move is
Wherе you're going
How it's blinding
What is showing
And it's hurting
Oh it hurts
Oh it stings your skin
Every single word

I'm not thе same person I was
Person I am
I have the same face
I'm just going at a different pace
In your limelight
Tall tonight
Slow dance around the topic
Tell me all you want to hear
I don't mind if it's tonight
That you tell me
"Get it over with quickly"

I have to figure out
What I want, what it's all about
You don't know
Don't have a single clue
Or am I not giving you enough credit
Where it's mentioned
Where your head is
Have I said it
Is it obvious
Am I making sense
Do you see it in the same light in the same pretense

Open up your eyes to me
Just let me bathe in the mystery
Open up your eyes to me
Let me pretend for a little bit longer
A little bit longer
Am I getting stronger
Is it almost over
Do I have to say it
Do we have to play this game again
Can I just go back home I'm tired now I'll go to bed

Am I making sense?
Does it have to ring inside my head
Am I the only one left
Is it fun, do you enjoy this?
Knowing so obviously
What the plan is
Do you know yet
Am I making sense
Is this in my head
I'm so tired, can I go yet?
Stuck in my head
Round and round it goes again
Stuck in my head
Round and round until I lose my breath
Round and round until we've had it
Until I've paid my debt