its meant to be this way

[Intro]
I was in a bad place you've never been there
I've been blinded for years but I see clear
Said you do it, I don't know, you kinda seem scared (I— I know its meant to be this way)
I've been cursed at this for years, it never seemed fair
Say you worry when you should've just been there

[Verse]
I've been tryna feel like this for 3 years
Can you forgive what I did, I didn't mean it
I didn't mean it
I wish you would believe it
Sometimes it still feels real
It'll go away, I just have to keep still
I never seemed off white I have been trill
I believed in this life and its been real
I believed in this life and its been real
I believed in this life
Feel it eat me
I see you beneath me
I wanna go back and teach me how to be me
I'm done down here you can beam me
Spent months down here, you didn't see me
In the end the right choice became easy
In the end the right choice became easy
In the end the right choice became easy
Heal the wound but it hasn't stopped bleeding
Its not the same thats fine just leave it
Just leave it
All the things we could've been
I said it but I really didn't mean it
I can't believe you believed it
I guess now we're even
Thats on me then