It’s All Over

[Verse 1]
Writing this is so draining
I'm not fine, I'm barely maintaining
I'm sick of working these 9 to 5's just for the sake of getting some payslip
And my writer's block is frustrating
If I had a life I would take it
And for London I get good wages but how the fuck am I supposed to save it?
Walking through the Underground station
Hating all the Londoners pacing
Squeezing them like sardines on a train, haven't you heard of waiting?
Point taken, listening to my songs and I hate them
Daily struggling to be creative
Maybe it's because I give up the blazing
That's a big statement
I'm still young, I've got dreams
Still finding out what life means
Few years back I lost a good manager and burnt all the bridges with my team
And I don't think I'll get over them
I reminisce about being on the road again
Sit stagnantly in my bedroom to the point that my coffee's gone cold again
Suicidal on the best of days
Find it hard to accept the pain
Hope I feel better than yesterday
But these demons are hard to regulate
I just wanna feel human
I don't wanna end up doing something stupid
But I'm completely useless
Man, what the hell's the point in doing music?

[Chorus]
I've been sipping too much gin
I smoke way too many cigs
I've been sacked from every job I had, my life should be easier than this
I don't think I want to live
I don't think I want to live
I guess it's all over
I guess it's all over
Do not say I never told ya
Every day passed by and my soul gets colder
It gets colder
It gets colder

[Verse 2]
The last thing I want is any sympathy
Stay beside me if you're into me
If I could go back and do it differently
Then by now I would've made history
But I was doing features with random people for a bit of cash and no dignity
This industry is such a mystery
You do one bad move, you're done instantly
When I started, I was so focused on making my bars go over heads
Ten years on, I'm in loads of debt
And I struggle paying my overheads
The last week was so soul destroying that I pray I die when I go to bed
And if that happened, I'd have no regrets
Because what I'm feeling's pretty close to death
I'm so depressed
I don't think I've ever been this lonely yet
Even though my mum's tried to call me loads and I ain't been picking up the phone again
I overslept
Signed off sick 'cause of loads of stress
Drink so much that I wake up pissed and I smoke so much I've got a croaky chest
I signed a deal with some stupid guys
Broke my clause, I couldn't do my time
Didn't rate me for the tunes I write
They just saw a niche that they could utilise
And don't say that wasn't the case man, you tell lies
So glad I left that situation, if you're doing something, you should do it right

[Chorus]
I've been sipping too much gin
I smoke way too many cigs
I've been sacked from every job I had, my life should be easier than this
I don't think I want to live
I don't think I want to live
I guess it's all over
I guess it's all over
Do not say I never told ya
Every day passed by and my soul gets colder
It gets colder
It gets colder