It All Keeps Running Back, Babe

[Verse]
When you brush my thigh, then I start to hide
And my reflex tells me to grip my sides
And when I withdraw deeper inside myself
I’m too ashamed to proceed with a cry for help
I try to tell, will I grab your waist? Only time will tell
You look at me like you did something wrong
And I proceed to move on, but I’m withholding all my dignity
I’m empty and gone
I kiss you on the neck but then you touch my chest
I’m cold, I sweat, I hold my breath, swallow now
Sink to your socks on your bedroom floor
And you can feel the cold pull from the open door
I could drive away
I could tear up the book, this the final page

She caught your look this time

[Chorus]
Oh it all keeps running back babe
It wasn’t who I meant to be
It’s not easy

Oh all it all keeps running back to me
It wasn’t who I meant to be
It’s not easy

[Verse]
Told her once upon a time was a kid in trouble
Now she’s deep into my side, as I pictured the bottle
Struggle, I choke, hide the lump in my throat
When she asked what happened next, then i quiver, I broke
I can’t cope
Laugh, distract with dumb jokes, I show
Weakness in my fever dreams, it’s easy kid, just sink within yourself
Stare at her and wish that you could tell

[Chorus]
Oh it all keeps running back babe
It wasn’t who I meant to be
It’s not easy

Oh all it all keeps running back to me
It wasn’t who I meant to be
It’s not easy