Is this the fall?

With grace, and then
The taste of blood
Upon my tongue
It seems it's been so long I've felt anything the fall[?] in my life
Passing through the floor and rising from the fire is a face
Of mud, encased in crud
From all that [?] now
Rushing through a sewage pipe
Beneath the foliage
[?]

Have I become a bird?
Tiptoed and crowed
Is this the sound you heard?
Is this the fall?
Of my life
[?]

To fall down on my knees
The flies that buzz over me
First chance with disease from mountaintop to plain
[?]
Shadows that whisper, "Child, welcome home
How I thought you had lеft me on my own
For years I beliеved I was all alone
And I tried to fight it, I tried to find a way out from behind but
I got restricted
I passed through the floor
Or simply redacted
Irises expanded and then contracted
The light came, winter came, the smoking, the melting
Your [?] through a halo
The sun, it feels like [?]

I became a bird
Tiptoed and crowed
Is this the sound you heard?
Is this the fall?
Of my life
My life
Is it gonna be?
I settle down
Could it be?
Is there ground to catch me
Fall