‎is suicide too much?

[Verse 1]
She's in a cab, somewhere far away
I'm in my room, day-drinking on a Tuesday
It's such a drag and she don't wanna pick me up
So, what?
But it all goes downhill from here
I got a pill in my pocket, watch it disappear
I got too much on my mind
And she don't wanna pick me up
So, what? —What? —What? —What?

[Chorus]
I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I'll be outside, up on a ledge, know I'm dying
On the inside I'll be fine, is suicide too much?
My love
I take it all to the face, catch the bus back home
I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones
And a spike on my boot, I can't wait too long for you, my love

[Verse 2]
My body keeps shaking and you know I can't take it, baby
I don't wanna do this alone
You said that you'd be back before eleven
Now it's twelve-thirty-seven and you know that I've gotta get going home
I know I don't lose my cool around you
But I can't take lying, baby, that's all that you do
You know I don't lose my cool around you
But I can't take lying, baby, that's all that you do —do —do

[Chorus]
I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I'll be outside, up on a ledge, know I'm dying
On the inside I'll be fine, is suicide too much?
My love
I take it all to the face, catch the bus back home
I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones
And a spike on my boot, I can't wait too long for you, my love

[Bridge]
I'm lying on a cold tile floor
My head feels like it's gonna explode
You need me but I need you more
I'm lying on a cold tile floor
My head feels like it's gonna explode
You need me but I need you more

[Chorus]
I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I'll be outside, up on a ledge, know I'm dying
On the inside I'll be fine, is suicide too much?
My love
I take it all to the face, catch the bus back home
I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones
And a spike on my boot, I can't wait too long for you, my love