IS EVERYONE CRYING OR AM I JUST CLINICAL

[Chorus]
I have to fucking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time
I have to fucking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time

[Verse]
Crawling away
Everything's back when I'm falling awake
Nothing feels worthless as calling your name
I'll preach to churches, still nothing will change
I'll stay the same
Pick up a rock
Throw it as hard as you can at the clock
Even if I die, our time wouldn't stop
So lay it all out, count how much we still got
Can't fucking talk
I'm gonna jump
Don't think I'm able to finish this month
Tell my mother I love her, my brother gave up
That was too much
I'm not strong enough
This is reality, I'm fucking scared
My parents' lives are a living nightmare
Nobody knows what it's like to be there
Please don't reach out, it induces my fear
All I can do is get comfortable here

[Chorus]
I have to fucking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time
I have to fucking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time