Introvertigo

Like a crossword, I often try to find the perfect letters
Just to merge together into words I utter but I'm awkward
Not a talker, no i tend to mutter, stutter when i speak
I get these flutters and feel weak like I’m performing at a concert when I converse
Every syllable a struggle
Every sentence I attempt it leaves me feeling so disgruntled
Like just leave me in my bubble
Why attempt to socialize when I can close my eyes and never deal with any trouble
Not a poltergeist, but I tend to ghost my friends
Messages left on read and plans left open-ended
Like a batter who keeps missing, yeah my mood will swing a lot
I'm full of energy one second but the next it's like my batteries are missing
Ecstasy to languor in an instant
So don’t bother tryina message me, I‘ll anxiously dismiss it
Yeah don't try to blow my phone up, I saw your notifs show up
I'm not ignoring you i only want a little distance
I won't be far
My introvertigo has got me drained, i need to recharge
If social energy was like a game I'd need a green bar
And before each conversation i would save so that in case I feel ashamed I'd be less lame the second play-through when i restart
Pick the perfect dialogue at checkpoints
But I prefer my time alone in solitude with less noise
And honestly the best choice, is staying locked inside
While I daydream of an exit route that's paved with dotted lines...
Yeah, that's paved with dotted lines
And hopefully one day I can escape and go outside
But for now I’ll just remain within safety of my mind... yeah
Like a crossword, I often try to find the perfect letters
Just to merge together into words I utter but I’m awkward
Not a talker, no i tend to mutter, stutter when i speak
I get these flutters and feel weak like I'm performing at a concert when I... converse