Internal Permafrost

I think I've fallen apart
So many times that I don't
Remember what it's like
To be whole
I don't pretend that I
Have been through more than you
I guess I'm just a bit
Too weak not to break

(I wish I could tell you about all of my fears
But then you might join me as I drown in them
And I know you don't deserve these freezing depths)

I think I've wandered off
Too far, so now I can't find my way out
Of this maze... Of this hole
Of this sinking ship I used
To hide from everything
That I couldn't face
But that I could not escape