Insomnia

[Verse 1]
Day after day I been feelin like I don’t deserve none of this
The dreams in my head are crazy
I don’t have time for a bucket list
But I’m tryna go back to kid
Don’t even know if I wanted this
I’m split in my mind
It’s E and it’s Major they can’t seem to coexist

I know that I’m supposed to be major but
I don’t feel it
There’s light at the end of the tunnel
But I don’t see it
The lies in my head are screamin'
But I don’t believe 'em
I’m more than another statistic
But I just been feeling like I’m in the 1% of people trying to give it to God
I know that it’s crazy
But just 'cuz I love him don’t mean that I’m perfect
Man that’s a facade
I struggle to sleep at night
When thinkin' 'bout all of the problems I let in my life

This ain’t an attack but anxiety aiming me
Like it’s boutta go
Blat Blat Blat
Blaow

I’m looking to heaven like God what do I do
Feelin' the chaos inside just ruling my mind
Still trusting nobody but You

You’ve given me peace in my heart
Peace in my soul
But I’m still feelin dirty as Bronze
Turn me to gold

[Chorus]
I'm lost inside my head
Sleepless nights rule my bed
Try to find light
Hopeless fight
I close my eyes

Insomnia

[Verse 2]
Can’t sleep
Man I’m feeling debilitated
The mirror got me runnin scared
I wish I was Arnold
Wish I could terminate it
Battle scars run deep
I needed a medic to come rehabilitate it
The wound started getting agitated
The pain started getting irritating

God came in the dead of night
And the reaper really tried to stop him
The voices started getting in my head
"Maybe you should hop inside a coffin"
Then I dropped down to my knees
No cap, I thought it was Colin
Asked God for a second chance
And I promised that I would be ballin'

He told me "Learn to be a sidekick"
Like he the brain and the brawn
I asked him to make me a star
He told me that I wasn’t built like LeBron

He said "Best not try to be nobody else
On identity theft
You know that you already major
Now go tell the north and west-ern"

I been labeled as a wildcat
But really I feel like a turtle
Problems runnin' through my race
Too slow to compete
I’m trippin' on hurdles

I been thinking this my endgame
The army is runnin' through portals
Thought you were supposed Thanos
Snap, dawg I guess you was mortal

[Chorus]
I'm lost inside my head
Sleepless nights rule my bed
Try to find light
Hopeless fight
I close my eyes

Insomnia