INSECURITY

Hard for me to maintain
Thoughts inside my fucking brain
Every single fucking day
Everything thing the fucking same
Difference is a quick shot
Glock loaded turn into the villain
With no crip walk
Calling on my phone you should get lost
Non stop yelling from the old man
Bitch walk
Back into my head with these shit thoughts
Shit talk
Down upon myself it’s the self taught
Action that I’ve learned since a rugrat
Fuck a fucking face tat
Sad until my pulse flat
Dad is gone now where he at
Bitch gon leave me to myself
Cut my outside let me inside
Let in now let me war cry
I just my fucking shoes tied
Tripping over laces next
Aglit is my fucking neck
My girl won’t cry if I just died
Take a ride best take my life
Grip the knife just let me try
To kill myself just please just once
Tried before but I did fail
And momma told me life is frail
Im a wreckless sack of shit
Get a fucking sack of shit?

I forgot where dealer lives
Dust and chains inside my ribs
Break apart my nervous nerve
I just hate my life for sure
Years I wore that fucking shirt
The blood still on it fuck my worth
I want to waste inside my hatred
Fuck a lover time was wasted
Fuck a family time was wasted
Fuck this the world the power wasted
We all humans segregated
Feel alive? So special ain’t it
Getting kicks off special treatment
Sanity? You cool demons?
Egg and semen
Mistake universally

Certainly I’m more than just a sack of flesh controlled by insecurity
Not worthy please just spend your without me please I hate the fucking life I live so purge it out
No surface now I’m stuck inside the fucking clouds
And you bitch yeah you shot me down
I look just like a clown with disappointment on my face
Disrespect can get you killed? I’m disrespecting everything
Cause I’m not scared of wedding rings with death this is our loving way
Tears run off the cheeks now this is just another early grave
Early bird gon get the worm so I wake up in later day
Later fade my mental to the corner of my skull okay
Do you understand a single concept of reality
It’s sad to see that y’all don’t even know yourselves
Unaware of the cards I was dealt, have an impact? Fuck myself
Have a run back trace the lines
Gave a fuck now give it back
You’re a bitch I say to self
In everything I fucking lack