Insecurities

Insecurities
[Intro]:
Ayyo,ever got that feeling
That you just wanna die but not kill yourself
I'm feeling that man
Most of songs are emotional
Cause I've had a fucked life
But man this is what I wanna cry and hit some lines

[Verse I]:
I know I got through to some people
Like I know I made a change
So If I die or kill myself today
I know I would impact in some way
But it doesn't feel that way
Cause some days
I wanted love but too insecure to step up
Go and flirt cause I think I might fuck up
Or she might flip it up cause Im fat
Yeah and don't tell me I am not that
Working on it
But man It's hard to lose it
Just like it's hard to lose this angеr
Every time I see a truck
I get angry causе it reminds me
Of my dads hit struck
And I'm so insecure
I think i might kill someone blacking out
Puncture them like antlers on a deer
But I take a look in the mirror
And wish that the dude standing there
Would be just not there
Cause like I said I'm crying inside
I don't see the world as I should
All I see is death,violence,darkness
God where you at?
Cause my insecurities messing with my head
It's messing with my songs I make then I regret
Cause it might hurt or target someone
To the point where they need meds
I do like to rap but then I take a look at the draft
And see nothing but wasted space
Wasted time
Like what the hell was that grind
It got me nowhere
Maybe a couple likes
But inside just a couple fights
Cause my mind has battles
Making music is the only way to get through the struggles
And I wish someone was here to help me
But no one understands
I've been used and looked death in the eye
A couple times
It's just insecurities

[Hook]:
Insecurities
Man I have them everyday
Insecurities
Man they are my best friend in a way
Insecurities
They shouldn't get in the way (but they do)

[Verse II]:
Ever get that feeling that you just wanna run
Get outta your shell and just cuddle cause your not well
And just fall in a well cause then at least
You'll get some wishes from people?
Just me?
Oh well, I feel that everyday till I beat the pain
Inside of veins where I don't feel it
Like it's cold and light as rain
I listen to NF just to get me through the day
To remind myself that if I hurt my brain
There will be more pain
Not to my way but to my fam no wait
And that's just insecurities coming in
Cause I feel like no place welcomes me
Not even church for all the sins that I have bend
I'm just so insecure of my lens
Cause they are changed
Color after color dense
Hence why I say different things
But there all the same wings
Just different branches
And that's why I sing
To show the world how I'm vocal
But even then I feel like im loco
And I feel like I don't belong here
Not in rap career,not in the world either
Cause I feel like my persona is shit
And my mind is split
Even when I'm rich
I'll still be working for cents
Cause I don't know if I'm it
If I can make sense to some kids
Or just be a blowoff and get all the hate attention
I don't know man
It's me looking for sense

[Hook]:
Insecurities
Man I have them everyday
Insecurities
Man they are my best friend in a way
Insecurities
They shouldn't get in the way (but they do)
X2

[Outro]:
Slump