Insecurities

[Chorus: Crizelle & Kenan]
And all my past it lurks
Thought of it just hurts
I hide the emotions below
As tears with silence they flow

[Verse 1: Azidre]
I sit down my demons and face them one on one
Everytime a person says I've changed
I accept another one
Insecure most of the times
With low self esteem and confidence
Without the self learnt lessons
I would have had clouded runs
Endless mistakes I study to overcome
Realised you need to invest timе in only ones
The self rightеous humbled ones for the priceless time
I pour my soul in the things I correspond
I paint my verses on canvases when my ink syncs to the beat
Have your ears to it
All this while you've been listening to my heartbeat on it
I never see myself in the limelight
I hide behind the pages like a clockwork for when the time's right, yeah
I know you fucked up big time
But you need a only select few
Who see it right with you
To the end of the tunnel vision
Envision a 3D vision
Your fore sight's been short seeing mine
You been fucked with 2020
Misjudged by your own kind
Make time for your own highs
Insecurities kickin' in, I still fly, yeah
When my graphite glides I'm still fly, yeah
Still fly

[Hook: Azidre]
I'm so sorry, I'm insecure baby

[Verse 2: Azidre]
Childish ways I've been foolish lately
I'd run away like that would help me, like that'll save me
Call me crazy, I've been suffering from PTSD
Emotionally stressed, lately I've been anxious baby
Anxieties daily, special to me you a precious lady
Costly works especailly wealthy
Touch your soul with kiss of glory
I'd smile to tease and you'd reflect it like crazy, yeah
Will I be great as Nas and Jay-Z?
I try my best at time
All I know is I you speechless baby
Been jaded by my own flaws, I suffice to give
The only one to prove is myself
I achieve to live
As the word turnx, I curve my goals and dreams
It gives me chills everytime
I need to go back and unlearn and grow
Prisoned by my own mind
I escape within these bars
Ink spots all over my open scars
I numb the pain with a mellow heart
Having put words into motions
Everyone is masterpiece of art
Over flowing by emotions
Now I have your emojis with pink hearts, yeah
They say I have your emojis with pink hearts, yeah
It's crazy how love is now the part of the art and the soul to the hearts

[Chorus: Crizelle & Kenan]
And all my past it lurks
Thought of it just hurts
I hide the emotions below
As tears with silence they flow