Inner Thoughts (Honesty)

[Chorus: Sampled voice & ChillinIt]
Can I give you all that you need?
We're spendin' the nights runnin' free
(This one hurts me)
I'm holdin' my words so we can be here
(I always keep it in, always)
Stridin' through life (Not today), I can see

[Verse 1: ChillinIt]
Headphones on for the train ride
Silence, it tears through my bones
There's a whole train car full of people
We all just stared at our phones
Five thousand friends on my socials
But for some reason, I still feel alone
I've lived here my whole damn life
But at the same time, well, I've never been home
If I could I would stop my head from these thoughts
That bounce off the wall 'til I'm droppin' dead
But I ignored what the doctor said
And got better on my own, I don't need you to cop me meds
No mind, so my brain feels lost
I thank God that my soul's been found
Now I'm givin' you the real damn me
Now I'm never gonna stop this sound
'Cause these days, rather help you up
Than to sit there and let you down
'Cause I'd much rather help you swim
Than sit there and sink while I Iet you drown
Said I'm back on my real shit
Back now and I'm back with the fire
I'm back with the back to backs
I won't stop 'til my mum's out of work and my fam can retire
It's real man shit, come and they go
Yeah, I know there's a chance it'll hurt
My brother, what makes you a man
Is the way that a man puts his family first
It's easy to take what's yours
It'd be much harder to give
Everybody works hard for themselves
A real man works hard for his (Argh)

[Chorus: Sampled voice & ChillinIt]
Can I give you all that you need?
We're spendin' the nights runnin' free
I'm holdin' my words so we can be here
(This some real shit)
Stridin' through life, I can see

[Verse 2: ChillinIt]
My best friends turned strangers
I learnt that my love was a lie
I just don't think I could face it
Thank God that my brother's alive
One of them still never made it
It's a pain that I suffer at times
And I know that he's up there with Teta
And that Teta's sippin' that scotch in the sky
I swear that the whole world's crazy
No respect, and the whole world's lazy
The one girl that I love still hates me
And I wish that we kept my baby
I'm not proud of the man I've become
Lost good friends to the grams of the drugs
I'm tryin' to swim on the moonlight, argh
I wanna dance on the sun
I wanna hold hands with my son but I can't
Wanna put hands on the gun
And cock back and drop the clip to my brain
And lay there in pain with a handful of blood
All of my homies act like they don't know me, they're actually close
In the end, all my friends disappeared through the years
Like they Casper the Ghost
I get stuck in a train of thought, where I can't feel pain at all
Praise the Lord that I still be alive
But at times, I would die, and I'd give back my life
Just to make sure my baby's born
Stuck in a train of thought, where I can't feel pain at all
Praise the Lord that I still be alive
But at times, I would die, and I'd give back my life
Just to make sure my baby's born

[Chorus: Sampled voice]
Can I give you all that you need?
We're spendin' the nights runnin' free