​inhibition

[Verse 1]
I'm painting pictures
On another frame of mind
Tryna keep my distance
To let it subside

Cause I don't want it
I don't want the me that lied
But I'm getting strangled
By the rope of which we're tied

And I'll lose my mind
Until you forget me
Cut the string
And let me loose, but I doubt it

It's all my fault and
I should take responsibility
And apologize
But that's out of my abilities

Yeah
Wasted all my time
Using music to confide in
No matter how hard I tried
Now I realize

[Pre-Chorus]
That I'm stuck
My vision's getting starry
And my words, they turn to dust
Too busy spouting nonsense
But I don't really give a fuck

Cause this shit is pointless anyways
So far gone in just twenty days
The walls around me begin to cave
And I'm crushed by the weight of my sins

[Chorus]
And I might be out of my mind
That or I'm real fuckin' blind
It took me this long to discern
That I'm wasting my time
Yeah I'm wasting your time

Everything I say has no meaning
And I've been all caught up in my inhibitions
Tryna devise and write every word I sing
But I'm still chained up by the weight of the blame

[Bridge]
Yeah, and I'm confounded
Cause I sat and watched it wither away
My ethics are clouded
Amenity is not my game

[Verse 2]
If I weren't so adamant
Maybe there would finally be a change
If I weren't so inadequate
Maybe i'd finally find my place

But that shit's pointless when they see through you
And I lose focus, never carry through
Don't wanna be relied on when I'm just lied to
What does it matter to [you]

[Chorus]
And I might be out of my mind
That or I'm real fuckin' blind
It took me this long to discern
That I'm wasting my time
Yeah I'm wasting your time

Everything I say has no meaning
And I've been all caught up in my inhibitions
Tryna devise and write every word I sing
But I'm still chained up by the weight of the [blame]