In the Dark

I been living my struggle
Just living my life
Just putting out my story through this mic
In the dead of the night is when I write
When everybody's in bed
I'm writing scriptures for my son to study
Long after I'm dead .. Look
Imma tell him that this life is only temporary
So make the best of it
You're blessed to live with less to carry
Than the previous, I'd never put you through the pain
That my daddy put me through
Everyday is a chance to change
A change to learn and disengage
Whenever people talk down, that's when you turn the page
Walk away if they ain't got something worthy to say
Be yourself wherever you walk, don't be afraid
Nothing comes for free, you got to pay a price
Stand for what you know is right
And be ready to fight
You've got to learn to spot a snake
Cause they got a way of sneaking up and fuckin' you over
You gotta walk away
Never imitate it
Intimidate 'em and show you can take control
Let 'em know you ain't a fool
Son be true to you and happiness will follow
And pray to God everyday that you can see tomorrow

My life was hell in my own head
Fighting every single thought
Eyes so red
Many nights I would pray in the dark
Scared like a little child, I was raised in the dark
Hazed in the dark
Caged in the dark
Hate in my heart but I'm learning to forgive
Cause the rage that was sparked
From the pain in the dark
Is the past and I just want to live

I hope you understand
What it is to be a man, I pray that I can teach you
I was never given a chance to learn
So how am I supposed to reach
When I've turned into a problem that I can't even handle myself
Sometimes I wonder..
How the fuck I have gotten this far
Twenty six and my head is still lost in the stars
Will I make it tomorrow
Will I sink in the sorrow
Will I every get my shit straight and erase all these scars
That I'm covered in.. son you're more than I was
Back when I was your age, mumbling and tired
From the fires that I set
To the nights where I wept like a baby
It's so crazy looking back
I just want you to feel the love that I never did
Smother you in kisses and hugs cause you was heaven sent
You my baby, my everything little pumpkin head
You give me reason for breathing every single breath

My life was hell in my own head
Fighting every single thought
Eyes so red
Many nights I would pray in the dark
Scared like a little child, I was raised in the dark
Hazed in the dark
Caged in the dark
Hate in my heart but I'm learning to forgive
Cause the rage that was sparked
From the pain in the dark
Is the past and I just want to live