In the back of my mind

[Verse 1]
I'm scared
Why am I still here
Mmm
I don't mean to be complacent
With the decisions you made
But why?
Mm
In the back of my mind
You died
And I didn't even cry
No not a single tear
In the back of my mind (yeah)
You died
And I didn't even cry (uh yeah)
No not a single tear
Look uh
In the back of my mind you dead
There's so much love I'm sad
Yea you was supposed to be my forever
Now you forever dead
Perfect strangers all left messages
They still say left on read
Yeah toxic love all that bad energy
Yeah you fucked up my head
Yeah you fucked up my head
Wish I could take it back
You lame as fuck
You actin' out for scrubs that ain't gon love you back
They can't love you how I love you
And that shit is just a fuckin' fase
I was the one who made you who you was

[Chorus]
Yea it was me who put that v-up on yo back
Told you how to make your bread
Just be patient watch it stack
Yeah I told you about God and how to find yourself
You always thought no one was listenin' so I gave you an ear
You always said you was alone so I showed you love
You wasn't used to no affection I'm the one who gave you kisses and them hugs
Without the sugar you were down
And I'm the one who built you up
Yeah when nobody gave a fuck man
I was the one who gave a fuck
So for a fact you gon do my ass like that?
(Shit so what?)
I can't believe you was talking to them is behind my back
I ain't too good but when I needed you the most
You were gone
You used everything I said in confidence
As a joke
The shit I only told to you is comin' right back around to me
You taught me lessons
Never give my heart until she got a ring
You had that whole experience
Just had me out of my mind
Yeah and in da back of my mind
I swear to God that you died
In the back of my mind
You died (you fuckin' died)
And I didn't even cry (yeah)
No not a single tear (yeah)
(nah)
In the back of my mind (uh uh)
You diead
And u didn't even cry
No not a single tear
And I been just waiting
Patiently for someone
That won't even arrive
....
I've been....