In My Skin

[Verse 1]
The picture changing on me everyday
In the mirror see exactly who my momma raised
I'm trying not to make it sound like all I do is complain
I'm through with the same
And through with the game
That's why I had to make a name change
Gotta introduce myself
Codiac with 2 Cs
Thought you knew my health
Matter fact
I know you prolly don't care
Got a whole different flow here
Let me boast here
Had some rough years
Thank God I lived to tell about it
And I even religious but let me tell you bout it
Became a father the day I fucking turned 20
And to this day I'm still learning
Because my own deserted me
Got niggas committing burglar
For my trust
Like they don't know that only hurts them G
Whiz
I'm in deep shit
Writing this 2 days before I'm homeless
Some deep shit

[Refrain]
Do I deserve it
Do I deserve it
Do I deserve this
I'm tired of fucking hurting
I know that I don't deserve it

[Bridge]
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross round my neck
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross in my skin

[Verse 2]
Is this the life that's meant for me
I'm steady failing at it, someone take the test for me
I miss the days when I felt like I was the best coming
Out of my city but now my life ain't so pretty, man what's next for me
I asked God but he ain't answering
Need stability but ain't nobody anchoring
Remember when I made So Lost
Well this is how I feel now
Don't ask me what's my deal now
Yeah, they tell me keep on pushing forward
But they don't know how I feel when my son is down in Florida
Without me
Don't doubt me
I'm really fucking trying
I come off as if I'm lying
Fighting demons in my mind
But they been won
Still at war for my happiness
Surprised I'm even still passionate
If life's a test then I damn well ain't passing it
Mafucking pacifist, so life just cracks my shit

[Refrain](x2)
Do I deserve it
Do I deserve it
Do I deserve this
I'm tired of fucking hurting
I know that I don't deserve it

[Bridge](x2)
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross round my neck
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross in my skin

[Verse 3]
Cross in my skin
Heart on my sleeve
Looking at my left hand, I see the only star I need
So imma wish the symbol on the right is really me
A fucking Superman but only in my dreams it seems
Man, something's really gotta give
I know I got a gift
I'm going through a lot of shit
Hoping when it's all said and done that they acknowledge it
This angel on my shoulder better be real good at blocking shit
Proving that my tats got meaning to em
But that's another story
I'm just tryna sell mine
This ain't pretend life when I wanna end mine
Bad mindset, I know, I just ain't living right
Sick in the head, I'm fucking going insane
Got a lot of fucking problems that just flow in my brain
Everybody saying take some time to just pray
But man I ain't even religious so for me it's too late

[Bridge](x2)
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross round my neck
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross in my skin

[Refrain]
Do I deserve it
Do I deserve it
Do I deserve this
I'm tired of fucking hurting
I know that I don't deserve it