‏‏‎ ​in my own head

[Verse 1]
I don't wanna leave you alone it's
Just that I didn't really think you would notice
And I'm not the best at showing emotions
But I do want you to stay for the moment
Wanna say it but don't know how to word it
Hope that you don't think I'm doing this shit on purpose
I don't say it cause' I don't wanna burden
So I put my thoughts in every one of these verses
I don't care just take what you want
I just wanna feel like someone
And it's not your fault I know
But you pick up my calls you won't
Your so self-centered
The old you treat me better
So her I can't forget her
And you'll have my heart forever
And I mean it, do you mean it?
[?] stops speaking, for no reason
Is it your way of getting even?
And is it my fault when you stop breathing okay
You want me to leave you, no way
I just wanna see if you're okay
When your heart is beating at a slow pace
I just wanna be here when you go away
I just wanna be here when you go away
Watching your body as you float away

[Chorus 1]
I, wanna help you close your eyes, wanna be there by your side
Cause' nobody else will, cause' nobody tried
To learn what makes you cry, and I know it eats you up inside
I can't get you off my mind

[Verse 2]
Every night I shed a tear before I go to sleep
You're the only fucking person that would notice me
I don't know why I got a feeling that this isn't how it's sposed' to be
How am I supposed to heal when I can't talk about it openly
I don't know why I'm here I guess this music really spoke to me
They said that I was ugly, hurt my feelings never notice me
Telling me I changed now these bitches keep approaching me
And now I'm mean as fuck cause' it's the only way I know to be
High school days all these bitches would belittle me
Focused on my bag chase these digits for the little me
I became that nigga that I always thought I couldn't be
Lying to these bitches and I do it for the little me
Now I'm touching numbers that y'all told me that I wouldn't be
Y'all don't know bout' all them bad nights that y'all couldn't see
Grateful for my niggas they the reason that there's good in me
But I still got a hundred shots for my artillery

[Chorus 2]
I, don't wanna close my eyes, with nobody by my side
Cause' nobody else will, cause' nobody tried
To learn what makes me cry, and it really eats me up inside