In My Mind

[Chorus]
In my mind but I find that I still want you
In my mind, in my mind
But I find I still want you

[Verse 1]
I throw the towel in but I begin again
It's always been about the pen, and the music is my friend
Always been about the pen, the music is my friend, yeah
Cathedral understanding now, I'm landing on the moon
I used to be a simple Jew
A little testy when you would come at me all rude
I'm black and blue and the bruises are apparent
Body beaten but my engine still raring
So turn the key and let me get some gasoline
And saddles blazing and trails illuminatеd
70 ways to get out the frustration, and reach thе aim
For now, I stay in, I just realized I been prayin' for the wrong things

[Chorus]
In my mind but I find that I still want you
In my mind, in my mind
But I find I still want you

[Verse 2]
Grey days, January 31, lick a little spliff
That's the way I like to get it done
February 1, I'm writing 10 bars a day
I heard somewhere that keeps the lazy brain away
And I ain't seen the doc in like a decade
I'm alright, yeah ma', I'm okay
I try to keep the pressure at bay
Will I be defeated? No way
Can I handle it?
Been passed over more times than a pamphlet
With my candle lit at both ends
Will the time pass? Tik Tok, like trends
I'm so class, close like family
Used to live in California where my life was like a painting
Sunset over Hollywood, hills are overrated
Got you puking from the pills with your stomach agitated
I know it's given you the chills but baby boy, you got to live
You gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta live
And get up and out this mess and sell the crib
I worked too hard, been too blessed to give in
To let it crumble like the crest of a wave
Sometimes it crashes, where's the vest for my babe and my— ah?
(Crumble like the crest of a wave)
(To let it crumble like the crest of a wave)

[Chorus]
In my mind but I find that I still want you
In my mind, in my mind
But I find I still want you

[Verse 3]
When it comes to this music, yo, I got tenure
You just pretend pure, wicked men get censored
Sliced from Soloman sword, you get sent back and ignored
Spent too many nights alone on tour
I bring the music to your doorstep, won't let the day slip
May leave the floor wet, I do prefer the day trip
I stay way ripped off the hinge
I'm unzipped like this for instance
I plot my business, I got good wishes
Yeah, on my shit list, oh shit, I said this
I meant my wish list, my fists the swiftest
My kids are gifted, they act suspicious
And if you lifted, come quick, get with this
I passed the Litmus, go check your witness
I keep on going till the early distance
Took so many risks, I took these pictures, ayy

[Chorus]
In my mind but I find that I still want you
In my mind, in my mind
But I find I still want you