IN LOVE WITH A CYNIC (Treasure)

Dear friends
If you can hear me in this
This is not for you
I put a lot into making sure everything felt right
And I made every mistake knowing one day I'm gonna regret it-
Or I might, I might regret it, uh

I made everything feel like an ending
Because at that time, uh
It probably actually felt like an ending
And, I've shared hopeless moments with you
But, I've never like once admitted to the fact that-
I'm at my best when I... (No, I'm not going to say that)
Um

I'm at my best when I recognize something as a beginning rather than an ending
And I'm saying this, knowing full-well that I'm going to regret it
I'm going to look back at this with an overwhelming sense of embarrassment

That, doesn't really matter though
Because that's what- this is what's on my mind right now
At this very moment
And I think, it's finally time to admit that this is not me
This is who I want to be

And I will keep saying that
Forever and ever
With the hope that some day, I might end up getting you right
But the truth is, I don't think I ever will

And that's not a bad thing, 'cause neither will you
And it might be a little, fucked up to find a little bit of comfort in that
I wish, you, could hear me in this
The "me" I have-
(You held me in a fantasy)
Oh my god that's yeah that's...
Cringe

Until I make the end a beginning
Everything will just be an ending
And heres to many more

Dear friend, if you can hear me in this
Just me, this is not for you