In Case I Don’t Make It

To whom it may concern
I'm the kid who you never listened to in your class
Sitting in back, I write
I have tried, to make friends
They only act nice until somebody see me with them
Saying take your headphones off
How can we get to know each other if we never talk?
Fuck it, teacher gon take em anyway
And last day of school they gon turn up lost
But she don't even offer to pay for them
Third year of summer school they want me to stay
Again, I feel sick from the food
The NTA's move, I'mma slip from the room
I feel better roamin' the halls
I don't know the reason though I reckon there's a cause
Maybe it's because I feel alone and lost
And my home life's cut from the same kind of cloth
Every once in a blue, my dad calls
Someway, I wanna say I love him, but feel nothing
In the face of regret, so quick to say he want to change a step
But ain't done what he claimed yet, it's dumb
I might be his son, but that fight's over and done
He made that choice when I was six, lookin' in my face drunk
Sayin' he ain't even want kids
What a bitch, I didn't deserve that
I dipped Kevin everyday in my first class
He on the football team a senior
He punched me my first day and chipped my teeth up
I hate him, can't shake him
Shoulda hit him, just didn't
Could it be I'm a sheep among wolves
Girls see me as weak and uncool
And I see them as cheap and uncouth
So we evenly each be unmoved
Truth is, they don't know me inside
If she want to be my homie, I'll be open to try
It's not physical, I just wanted you to be
Civil enough to let me sit with you, I'm not invisible
I say hi every time and you never reply
If shit flies don't be surprised
If I die just remember I tried
If I don't just remember my hopes
Is this an unfunny joke or a suicide note?
You never know