Impaled

Fell from grace in my younger days
And ever since then, soul locked in a cage
Always had this hate, don’t think that’ll change
My heart impaled but I rose from the grave

Waltz through the cemetery on my worst days
The whispers of the dead remind me that it’s okay
To feel this way ‘cause the pain will go away
But until then, gotta make the most of the wait
Am I supposed to feel the world’s weight on my shoulders
Am I supposed to, with age, keep on getting colder
I wish it were a phase how I’m plagued
By the dark thoughts occupyin' space in my brain
The light never makes its way
The light never makes its way through and so I remain
Forever tethered to the pain
Couldn’t cope so I became
A masochist of sorts
Life’s a bitch and a whore
I just tell her give me more
Let the blood pour and I’ll make sure the torture morphs
Into a horrible amalgamation
The gory silk unfurls
I’m released from the cocoon
Ready to fuck up the world

Fell from grace in my younger days
And ever since then, soul locked in a cage
Always had this hate, don’t think that’ll change
My heart impaled but I rose from the grave

Mentally unwell, stuck inside this hell
Kill you ‘fore I’d ever kill myself
Life is so damn swell
Down here, forever dwell
With the decay
Where my angels fell
How am I, don’t ever tell
The truth, lie through my teeth
As I yell inside and scream internally
Reflection temptin’ gruesome scenes
Hate everything I fuckin' see
Don’t fuck with no one new I meet
It’s hollowness inside of me
I swallow pride like every week
When losses knock me off me feet
Bloody hands typin’ on the keys
My final thoughts, then I delete
The passages, the hope in me
It flickers dim but still I see
That there is more in this life for me
I lost my hope, afraid the void in me
Is stuck within eternally
But in turn, I see
When the bird’s eye POV is reached
The inferno burnin' underneath the surface
That’s what makes me me
It’s the struggle, the flame, the burning heat
The constant pain, only way I see
That I fell in Hell to become its king
When my demons knelt, that is the moment I finally felt free